Pernah merasa paling kerdil, gak berguna, dan putus asa? Ketika orang-orang di sekitar kamu juga rasanya gak bisa bantu kamu? Merasa kalo kamu itu paling tidak dimengerti sama orang-orang? Ketika kamu ingin mengungkapkan kesal yang ada di hati kamu, tapi gak ada orang yang bisa diajak share? Kesel, bingung, mau marah, pengen nangis rasanya... Ya, itu yang sedang aku rasakan akhir-akhir ini.
Mengharapkan hal yang nyaris mustahil, dan itu parahnya selalu menghatui pikiranku. Dan aku juga entah harus melakukan apa pada diriku sendiri, harus memulai dari mana, bercerita pada siapa, tak ada pilihan. Ini mungkin sifat jelekku.Tapi aku juga tak bisa menyalahkan keadaan atau menyalahkan orang-orang di sekitar. Atau bahkan terus menyalahkan diri sendiri, menganggap bahwa semua terjadi karena aku yang tidak becus menjalani hidup ini.
Ayolah...kau harus berpikir positif atas semua yang terjadi. Ketika semua yang tidak ingin diingat malah muncul, anggap saja itu merupakan pelajaran lama di buku catatan, kadang terbuka juga kan...Dan di dalam otak, pasti banyak ingatan-ingatan yang bertumpuk, kadang muncul begitu saja. Itu hanya fisiologi normal saja...:D
Semua masalah itu akan membuatmu makin kuat, makin membuatmu makin bersinar. Karena itulah yang membuat hidupmua lebih berwarna. maka dari itu, warnai juga hidup disekitarmu. Sinari redupnya hidup. Just like fireworks. You are fireworks that burst color on your world and make its shining and brighter than moon! Forget, forget all of your unhappy. Your life is too short to be unhappy...
Fireworks - Katty Perry
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
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